dc daze

Today I witnessed three birds fighting over a half-eaten fried chicken wing. show me a man that does not love d.c. and ill show u an ungrateful man!!!

SOOO over it!

You ever just wake up one morning and just didnt give a flying fruit bowl? thats how i woke up this morning. and it feels gooooooooooooood!

what is your vision?

So my mom, in her mom way, sought to encourage me. I had been feeling down about medical school as I have realized medicine is NOT my passion and not what I am called to do for the rest of my life yet I cant decide what else it is I should be doing. She goes on and on about how I always accomplish the goals i set out to seek. Just look at how you got into medical school she says. You just put your mind to it and did it, without guidance or really any insight as to how to get there but you did it and now youre thriving! She assured me that all i needed to do was get really clear about what it was I wanted to do and that it would surely come to pass.

So now Im spending my days imagining myself as a real housewife of Orange County, Atlanta, OR New York. Any or maybe ALL will do. Wish me luck!!!

I needed to hear this

When you refuse to love people because they're hard to love, you forget the fact that God always loves you, even though you're not always easy to love....

So Im trying to hold it down... Boy that quote couldnt have come at a better time!

:)

Sometimes I smile till my face hurts... I want to stop but my heart wont let me. every moment I am inspired by the animation of life all around me, the love flowing through me. How can I not be thankful for the blessing of life bestowed upon me and all it has afforded me? I have a responsibility to be faithful to it. To cherish and own it. To be careful with it and to respect it by being humbled by it. Smiling is my duty. Its the least I can do! :) :D

Let the church say amen!

the more men i meet, the more I love my dog. Thank you Carrie Underwood for your insightful words of wisdom!

Message from THE KING

Michael Jackson, King of Pop, was laid to rest today. Millions mourned as onlookers gathered to catch a glimpse of his heavily flower-laden casket, while others exchanged their favorite "Michael story", and it seems almost everyone has one. How did a single man, a single BLACK man, a single black man from such humble means, inspire and touch so many hearts around the globe? What was his secret that caused us all to be mesmerized by his silky notes, slinky dances, and glittery glove?
For many it was much bigger than that. His performances allowed us a glimpse of an at times seemingly fleeting God. He allowed the God in him to shine fourth by teaching us to how to be energetic and enthusiastic. About life. About people. About whatever it is we do. To be relentless and fearless in our pursuit of our dreams. We learned that the sky is the limit if we put our whole hearts into what it is we are called to do. But maybe most importantly he taught us compassion and loving without limits or fear. He taught us that we could effect positive change in the world just by being the very best we could possibly be.
Upon his death we realize that we love him so much, claim him as our own because he represents the storm of potential in all of us. Each of us contains the same light he possessed and we have but to let it catch afire to blaze an equally amazing trail.
Even before his death he has been referred to as the greatest performer that has ever lived and even more so after. Those few who dare to argue the statement know at least this for sure: His legacy will live on much longer than anyone who viewed his descent into the dust.
Thank you for the life lessons Michael. You will be dearly missed.
Love,
Mak

New Love Philosophy

So my new philosophy on love is simply this: I ask myself "would the old Mak have done that or reacted in that way?" If the answer is yes, I DONT DO IT!!! Sad, I know. But recently I have come to realize i cant ride this train forever. I mean I do want to be married someday and in order to get something new you have to do something different right?
Ive been single...well...most of my life so that has allowed me to acquire certain bad habits that are not conducive to my long term goals. I have largely operated in this mode where I dont have to hold myself accountable for the things i do and say and if I am brought to do so I usually jump ship. The old Mak says of this "I dont need his drama!" But what really has my panties in a bunch? Fear of commitment? fear of settling? Fear of settling with the wrong one? Or is it something a lot less deep?
So not too long ago I met a great guy. Right up my alley. Fun to be around. Intellectually stimulating. Handsome. Great Kisser. Really sweet guy. and what did I do? Make him insecure by holding onto this do what i want, with whomever i want, whenever I want mantra. And for what? Its not even really what i want! (sigh) So now he all but hates me so I guess its back to the drawing board for me. Eh maybe he just wasnt the one. In any case THIS time Im gonna do things right so that if things dont work out I can at least say I did my share. Wish me luck! I gotta get this thing going if i wanna be married and start having kids before Im 40!!!! ahhhh!!